Have you ever liked someone and then after a while thought.
‘no I’m not going to go for him/her’ and it’s not because you’re worried that they’ll reject you or don’t like you back, its simply because you don’t want your idea of and about that person to be ruined. You want to keep your perfect view and imagination of what they could be,
A while back I started talking to someone and at first it was just about music, because he couldn’t download a Coldplay song and a few other songs so I said I could do it for him. Fast forwarding a little. We became friends. After a while we stopped talking (my phone broke as it so often did/does and we stopped talking in school) I on and off liked him for a bit, so naturally like every teenager on the planet I then fabricated a specific idea about the person by that I mean I thought he’d make the perfect boyfriend and that he was super nice blah blah blah you get the idea I hope.
Back to the current time now, for some reason I can’t actually remember why but I started liking him again about a month ago but it wasn’t until today that I realised even if I could date him I wouldn’t want to because, my ‘picture perfect’ idea about him would change and he might not be the way I envisioned him to be. Therefore I realised that the best thing for me is to not do anything because that way im left with an untainted and idealised view of my last secondary school crush before I leave, rather than another memory of a boyfriend that went wrong. That might be a tiny bit of a pessimistic approach but my point is that sometimes not having the thing you think you want is actually better for you in the end. Odd that ….
See You Soon,